WHAT I’VE LEARNED THIS YEAR
So it’s my birthday eve and for anyone that knows me- this is a BIG deal. I am very much a birthday person. I always have been and always will be.
So many of my friends and family despise birthday’s and I just can’t understand why. Your birthday is the celebration of you- being here- living life.
With each year that passes- now that I am getting older and wiser I feel like reflection is such an important part of the celebrations. Push the pause button and really look at growth and how monumental each year can be.
I am about to get really candid on you, but this is a post about reflection and what I’ve learned this year.
I didn’t realize all the toxic in my life by hanging onto things that no longer where serving me.
Things that were no longer enriching my life, but were bringing me down and making me drag in life.
I have learned that it’s ok to be selfish when it comes to my life. After all it’s MY life. I don’t need things or people in it that aren’t going to make me the best version of myself.
I realized that what’s done is done and I can’t undo it and I can’t change it- all I can do is move forward and forgive.
Sometimes forgiveness can be the hardest part, but hanging onto the grief, anger, frustration or pain I am really only hurting myself. Let it go. Trust the process.
I freaking love this quote.
When I stop and think that in this huge world there is only one of me it almost takes my breath away.
I only get to do this life once and then that’s it. There will never be another me so I need to make sure I am doing the best job of being me.
Sometimes I do a really sh*tty job of it I will admit, but I will never give up on trying to make myself the best I can be.
This one definitely applies to my blog and writing.
In the bigger picture I am the person who is definitely willing to try something- step outside the box. If it doesn’t work I will have learned something if it does then my life will be better for it. It’s a win win.
However, when I first started blogging I thought that I needed to write a certain way or have a certain tone in order to be accepted into the blogging world, but this year I said screw it and now I write and blog from a much more honest authentic place.
A place that might be accepted or might not, but it’s MY creative space and my voice and that is a powerful thing.
It feels great to say what I want to say in a space that I create.
I realized this year that time is so precious. It’s seems to be whizzing by at an exponential rate and I can do nothing to stop it.
I think this one comes with age and time.
In my early 20’s I was just trying to learn about life and myself and about having relationships and what they meant to me- what I could offer.
Now I have learned all of that, but added one more component.
I am going to do what makes ME feel good and brings ME joy.
Nothing feels better then climbing into freshly washed sheets and watching The Real Housewives of ….
sitting outside with a Matcha Tea Latte and a good book.
I used to be really hard on myself. I am my own worst enemy.
This past year I learned that I can have a bad day and I can be in a bad mood and it’s ok. It’s ok to take a day and check out. Throw on sweats and reruns of Grey’s Anatomy and lay still for a day.
It’s ok to say to the people around me that love me the most and I love them more then that- I need to unplug for a minute.
I think it’s healthy-especially in a world that expects so much out of us and wants it done in the shortest amount of time.
In a way I feel that I was a bit selfish this year, but not selfish in a way of doing things that were only good for me, but rather made me a better person.
Sometimes in life we make deposits, but have to remember to withdrawal. It’s all a part of the process. It’s how growth happens.
This year was a year I made some withdrawals. I needed them to fill the spaces that were empty.
However, I am getting ready to start a new year and I can’t wait to make some deposits. I can’t wait to nurture the relationships I have, to cultivate new ones, to challenge myself, to grow.
Life is a celebration and this past year challenged me to forgive people, open myself up more, do what makes ME happy and take some withdrawals.
I can’t wait to see what this next year has in store.
Alright I am off to pamper myself a little for the BIG day tomorrow. Chow for now.
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